sherlyn

2007-01-20T06:03:00.000-08:00

its been a long while since i last blogged. things r pretty much the same. although i have to admit i m more attached to UPS. n with e arrival of e new permanant staff Su Shan i have someone to hang out n chat with during lunch breaks.. when we hang out at eastpoint or someplace else. she's like so damn innocent n farnie. e telephone extension thingy when siu wai called was jus one of e kind. i dont wanna feel so emotionally tied to UPS. cos unlike guardian its only temp. which means tat i have to leave at e end of feb. starting to miss it already. i miss e bus rides in e morn with siu wai. n now tat i moved to sit beside her i'm literally closer to her. i'll miss pcm. miss doing NDAs, internal courier, weekly cash balances, FX, filing, trade n network settlements, BG guarantees.. even refiling e water for em n stoning there like kerazy. u wont know how it feels unless u experience it. n besides tat siu wai's taking a 2 week long break from e 10 Feb to 26 Feb. so i'm gonna have to miss her even more. how very sad =(

2006-12-23T07:45:00.000-08:00

todays marks e one mnth anniversary of e end of As.. and it seems so long ago..
Jeff Buckley's 'hallelujah' playing over e speakers of my laptop and soothing a tired soul..
one mnth has passed.
one mnth working in guardian..
3 weeks in UPS. 3 weeks with the once-5-strangers kristie (from tpjc), siu wai (e daphne look-a-like), serene, carol and kelvin.
went to parkway's crystal jade to eat lunch wif em. still cant seem to mingle wif em. always feeling 'left-out' and 'not-belonging'.
had e meeting on fri in which everybody exchanged gifts except me (who was oblivious to it)
carol, kristie and siuwai gave me stuff. appreciate it. had a celebration for siuwai's bday in e office (in which we ate e CHOCZ tiramisu bday cake and switched off all e office lights to create e atmosphere).
sometimes things r nv meant to be. so i'll jus have to take things in my stride and stay strong despite e sometimes overwhelming sense of not-belonging.
vanessa, do get well kays? hope everything's fine tml. which i think it will be.
stay strong. if we had so many things common.. like e preferences for songs and television and stuff u can be as strong as me too! not tat i'm strong or anything.. but i'm just sweet talking here. i'll be there for u to support u (wif pom poms if need be). so.. rest assured n know u're not alone. with all those words of encouragement and support i'm guessing u'd have teared a little by now. -ur fren-

2006-12-01T10:04:00.000-08:00

today i had my interview wif ups after meeting weilin in sch n passing her my choir gown.
INTERVIEW
i stood up to shake hands wif e vice pres n pres of e treasury dept in ups after e person frm e HR dept led me to e board room. i smiled throughout e interview to show sincerity. n partly becos e lady kept checking me out n smiling at me. the guy asks me to intro myself.. in which i crap 'i went to chongzheng primary n then temasek secondary n then tampines jc..' which was utter nonsense n crap. the guy looks at e profile tat recruit express sent em n asks wads e MAS essay writing competition abt. i jus illustrated. he asks me abt my job experience. i told em i haven dont any admin stuff b4. but i work in gdian.. n then i told em all abt gdian n its job scope. lady tells me tat e job in ups is very fast paced n guy tells me abt it.they asked me abt my com skills. told em i frequently use microsoft word n powerpoint but rarely excel n tat i was going to rise up to e challenge n master e skills (crap again). lady asks me whether i m sporty. i said not really n was taken aback. she told me tat i joined vball. but she didn't know tat i quit vball after a yr cos i'm nt tat sporty. guy comments tat i joined choir. guy tells me tat there r other 4 potential candidates but they'll only choose one for e position.guy n lady ask if there's any qns i wanna ask or anything impt i wanna bring across. so i gave my most crappy statement : i m really interested to join this company because i wanna gain experience in admin work. n UPS is an established company globally.. lady says 'very good'. frm then onwards i basically knew i'd nail it. in gdian budget, bryan called telling me tat they'd finish e interviews n tat i'm their 1st choice. mins later i'm told to start work on mon n he sent me further details..
when i told my sis abt e interview, she was like LOL. nobody does his/her interview this way. but i nailed it. with my own way. sherlyn's style.

2006-11-28T10:09:00.000-08:00

saw this cool job ad. abt working in US for a mnth. cool isn't it? if only i cud live tat american dream of mine.. n then saw this other job.. at some kennel/cattery @ pasir ris. equally attractive!! =) but i'm tied down!! by 2 jobs already.. guardian + some other job tat i've nt started but starting soon (p.s tat job's like occupying all my weekdays frm morn till evening)..i really wanna prove to my mum tat i can earn 20k. cos she's totally not buying tat idea tat some kido like me can earn tat much within a yr. like wateva. at least working occupies me n makes me feel wanted n responsible. (rather than rotting my bod at hm) tml's prom.. but i'm not excited. i'm like totally in isolation mode rite now..

2006-11-22T18:52:00.000-08:00

A levels r officially over! happy, relieved but bored stiff. gonna go wisma later n check out prom stuff..

2006-11-19T18:34:00.000-08:00

bio is officially stoopid! studied so much and those tat i memorised n focused on did not came out.. like events leading to fertilisation for plant n humans for instance. HMPH!. n i was so happy something (like finally..) on humans came out (one pathetic qns 3) n i wrote like essay long ans although it was jus structured. so end up i only had 5-10 mins for e 1st structured qns. (gd thing i managed to finish it, if not i will jus kill myself for that) n then for e essay on seed dormancy.. it was jus pure recap n crap.. especially for e part b.. i was finding examples to substantiate instead of giving logical points. wateva. its over. n there goes my A for bio (hopefully not) jus hafta try to score like fantastic grades for paper 1 tats all. like at least 35/40? haha!..

2006-11-17T00:23:00.000-08:00

thank God! chem paper 1 was EASY! in fact many qns came out frm e tys. n i only started doing tys like today itself. but most of e qns tat came out were wad i did b4. n those tat came out from e tys but i didn't do, i still gt it correct! Yayness! i finished in 45 mins which left me 15 mins to check. in which i spotted one mistake n corrected it. it one abt bromine and aqueous sodium chloride with ethene. yup. changed it to D. qns 21. so anyways chem is officially over n now i'm left wif bio. mrs gay jus gave like 200 odd bio students 'early xmas gifts' of wat might come out in e bio paper 3 essays. which is like 26 pages total.lets say each page costs 5 cents, per person wud be $1.30 n for e whole bio cohort it wud b like.. 200+ bucks wow! n even if e teachers share it wud b more than 50 per teacher. how generous! all e more i shud start mugging hard for bio! yeah! 6 days left!

2006-11-16T03:51:00.000-08:00

swam for 20 laps today n went sunbathing for 45 mins. officially getting jealous over those ppl who end A levels tml. n poor bio ppl like me still have another week to endure b4 this THE END. kudos to those arts ppl. they end e last. so sick of studying! i'm already like giving myself a self-proclaimed break b4 my exams end.
went Vivo yesterday wif ah fat. b4 that we went chinatown for some starhub roadshow interview thingy. n then we went to some eatery at chinatown. n got like cheated of 4 bucks!! n to think tat we WERE happy tat there wasn't any service charge. $1.50 for tea, $0.50 for wet tissue, $0.50 for some appetizer (which i didn't even eat) n $1.50 for hu knows wad else <- those r individual charges btw.. n then we where supposed to go for another interview as telemarketers at international plaza. but we ended up shopping at VIVOCITY!! haha. its like so super fantabulous, huge, heaven-like etc. n we went on a clothes-shopping spree. whereby i bought 2 new tops at fox. places we went in Vivo - candy empire ( LOTSA candies n chocs there!! a MUST to visit. spent like an hr there jus deciding wad to buy. ended up buying Allen's candies. Minties and some caramel filled chocs), Fox, Topshop, Pull and Bear, Marks and Spencers, Guardian.. i think i must have left out some.. to think we spent like hrs there n we only covered one level n its like only part of it!anyways, while waiting for zx's bus to come we went tm. n shopped at Fox (yes, again!), Bum equip, espirit b4 heading to Mac n grabbing e latest Mochaholic Flavour Burst ice-cream. after exams shall shop more! Yeah =)

2006-11-14T06:39:00.000-08:00

swam for 30 laps non-stop today.
wrote my resume n sent to some company.
going for 2 interviews tml.
studying for bio n chem now.
seriously torturing myself with the work load.
gonna be super busy (if not even busier than i m now) after e A levels.
2 or 3 jobs.
gotta earn $$ to go uni.
INDEPENDENCE!

2006-11-13T22:21:00.000-08:00

ok. finished chem paper 2. within like 1 hr. then e other half hr was to check n change some untidy words of mine. i thot it was ok. except mayb for e transition elements qns. e one on e purple coloured thingy. which i wrote as iodine gas. wrote it as solution initially after which i changed it for some unknown reason. hmm.. can i ace chem? let's jus wait for e verdict to come out.. anyways, was studying wif vanessa n deb at one of e benches at e sec level when ms khoo came up e stairs.. so surprising can? n van was like ZZzzz-ing when she saw ms khoo (cos i woke her up) n she was like 'EH?!' LOL!! n ms khoo was like asking us how was e paper n stuff.. whether its fair ( wateva tat means, i think tats her defination of whether e qns r evenly spread out between paper 3 n 2 ) n she was like.. one more paper to go.. dont sleep late.. u need e energy to study etc. haven seen her for like a mnth? (cos i have been frequently skipping her lessons) n she looked so shagged n stressed. the way she spoke sounded seriously if she jus ran a marathon. after like 1+ hr of silent mugging (deb studying her econs n me n van studying chem mcq) we went to eat mac. n talked lots at T-mart. n then we accompanied deb back to sch for her econs exam. we planned to go ViVo City on thrus after our last paper bio paper 1 =) n well... wild wild wet e day after. so meanwhile i shall jus go shed some pounds at e swimming complex later n continue mugging for bio paper 3. finished wif human n plant reproduction + hormones.. left wif growth & asexual. after which i shall go thru e bk for another rnd. time's on my side anyways. OC tonight! cant wait!

2006-11-13T01:11:00.000-08:00

ok.. tml's chem paper n i'm now in a 'yeah. wateva' screwed up mood. seriously, whenever i look at some electrolysis qns i will feel so terrible. knowing tat i screwed up e 1st qns of chem paper 3 cos i didn't study for tat chapter?.. like THANKS. n then i had this weird dream as usual.. i dreamt tat i got A A C C5 for A levels.. geez.. C for math. hope this wont be some kinda premonition cos i really dont wanna end up getting Cs. GP included. chem paper's ok. though mrs toh said tat its demanding and some of her students cant finish.. n she said maths was easy.. hmm.. its ok for me. though i can recall i cant prove e stoopid vector qns in e either/or section of paper 1.. n tat my ans for e qns 2 of paper 1 (3d trigo) was wrong too.. n yah.. paper 2.. qns 4.. abt e trigo thingy.. i cudn't finish proving e sec part.. e stats was ok i guess.. so far bio's like the best.. really hoping tat chem paper 1 and 2 will be super diff. so it will draw e line between those hu r weak n those hu can score. n hopefully i can be the latter. like 4 more papers EVERYTHING will be done.. but still i m feeling NOTHING. i feel so sucky now n empty. like some cold-blooded monster tat has jus eaten a human being but still feels no remorse or satisfaction.. ok. tats like a bad analogy but i still cant help being overwhelmed by a sense of emptiness. like as if my soul is being sucked out. i seriously know tat i'm not putting my best into this A level thingy. cos my attitude's like affecting me. BIG TIME. ok. wateva.

2006-10-28T21:57:00.000-07:00

2006-09-24T03:40:00.000-07:00

alright. tml's my 18th bday. nothing much really. every bday passes jus like any other day. i've jus grown to be immuned to it.
i know u wanted to give me surprises and all. e prata feast, getting a cake a like. asking whether i m free tonight at after 10pm... but well.. i dont want u to get e wrong idea. we're jus frens n nothing much.
let me do a brief recount of e past year. i still marvel at the fact that tml's gonna b e results of SINGAPORE IDOL on my bday! and tat jus so happens tat SINGAPORE IDOL tops my list of interesting events tat happened this yr. for those who didn't know.. i went for SI auditions.. of which i forgotten my lyrics.. to top tat off i went ON TV! (e 2 sec long clip of me staring sideways + blankly cos obviously i was trying to recall my lyrics) n after tat.. i gained popularity. with sec sch frens asking me if i was on tv. -kat msging me early in the morn (she was the one who accompanied me to e auditions at 4am? LOL! i still rmb how we were so excited abt camping there.. taking a cab down to orchard cinelesure n all), nurul asking me whether i was on tv rite b4 sitting for common test, zhiyong asking me if i was on tv at e expo bla bla.. n of cos MR ADRIAN TAN catching me on tv when he's on sick leave!
n then this yr i quit volleyball n joined choir. had many pleasurable moments.. from e choir camp (dixon, eugene, jess, me n xuan played THE GAME OF LIFE, killing time while waiting to go LAST for e nite walk which wasn't scary at all, bathing for e 1st n prob e last time in tpjc's toilet + seeing ma idol sherlyn chua take v long to brush her teeth n wash her face) to jus plain tiring n demandin choir practices to e fantastic panorama n choir concert. PANORAMA was such a success i cud still feel it stirring inside of me.. i miss waiting backstage for our turn to perform.. all e excitement tat we cud barely contain.. e unity of e performers.. e meals packed in nice lunch boxes.. e nice dressing room..
of cos.. this yr was e yr of rejections... rejected by nelson kwei to go for e olomouc performance at czech republic. i shed like gallons of tears for tat.. n rejected by SI (like OBVIOUSLY)
of cos there were ups and downs here and there..
not forgetting wonderful times in maths and chem tuition. I LOVE MRS TOH AND MY FA CAI MAO!!! gp tuition came 1 mnth b4 prelims.. I LIKE MAY TOO.. times where i cud bond wif squirrel, shirlene n fatin =D
family problems as well.. which i do nt wanna dwell on rite now..
basically my sch life wouldn't b as entertaining w/o e click five or rather clique of 5 ppl.
starring: zixuan as AH MAO, vanessa as vanIssa, huichi as MS LOO, deb as DA MAN. n me sherlyn =) thanks y'all for making jc life interesting
alrite.. tats all..next yr this time i'd prob be enrolling for uni.. which.. i'm not really looking forward to..

2006-09-23T09:52:00.000-07:00

2006-09-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

i hate u all.. i hate the way u all jus criticise without even understanding the position i m in. ok. its partly my fault that my aunty has not enuff rest cos i do disturb her some times. not EVERYTIME. i've already tried to come out to e kitchen to study. i've tried ok.. n even when i study in e kitchen my mum scolds me. cos there isn't space to eat on e table. i dont even have a proper table in e small room i share with my mum. when i go into my sis room i dont have e table cos she has to do her work too. n at times when she is pissed i m told to leave e room. its like how can i possibly study w/o even disturbing others. i think u all r jus bloody fucking hell selfish to keep putting e blame on me for e health condition of my aunty. n to begin with, she's not even healthy in e 1st place. even w/o me disturbing her she already has this frequent headache problem. n its not like i have e $$ to move out. my mum is earning peanuts n my dad? hmm... i think he's jus being some irresponsible fucking person. fuck do i hate my life. fuck fuck fuck. i hate my family. i hate the way i was brought into this morbid world. a world whereby i wake up everyday dreading. dreading cos nothing good ever happens. like when was e last time i felt trully elated? its been so long i cant even recall.. i really wish to end this life. cos nothing good ever happens out of it. my parents brought this depression to me. a vicious cycle it is. n i has been recurrent. this depression. if i dont even love myself n my life how m i gonna appreciate other finer things in life. every thing i see is something grey. a very dull life without any tint of colour. i only get joy out of watching tv. oprah, the oc, ellen degeneres show, ANTM which is at most 3 hrs per day. which realistically means tat i only have 3 out of 24 hrs of relaxation n happiness daily. which, really isn't wad i perceive as the sufficient amount of happiness one shud have to feel satisfied in his life, and of cos to keep him moving on with his life. LIFE SUX BIG TIME for me. i jus wonder why..

2006-09-19T19:09:00.000-07:00

chem paper 1 was ok i guess.. going swimming later.. there's jus too much mixed emotions within me + need to exercise badly.
yongan's giving treating me on my bday~ =D
y is it i feel tat u r avoiding me? i've started to distant myself frm u too.. we used to be such close frens.. i cud no longer approach u in a friendly manner unlike e past. we have been so close yet so far. we see each other's presence without even wishing or talking to each other.. for like 2 weeks? i dunno.. mixed emotions..

2006-09-18T21:14:00.000-07:00

alright.. 2 more mcq papers to go. one of which i think i'd prob screw up. n tats none other than.. drum roll* bio!! gosh. i m so gonna do BADLY for bio. yest after bio paper 3 i almost came online n blog about all the religiously incorrect stuff. like e famous F word for instance. i cant believe i actually spent a whole weekend to study n yet e whole paper was a screw-up. i did an essay with a qns worth 12 marks and i did not include any of e key terms. tat choice was simply a conflict between the heart and mind. e heart won of cos. in e end i suffered. today's math was.. hmm.. OK i guess.. hope i can get at least a B for math.. its my only hope now.. i have this strong gut feeling i will get a C for chem. yes. back to square one after attaining B for e only time for e last common test. unless... there's a miracle n tat my paper 1 will score super high marks. i choose to be realistic n think otherwise.

i suddenly feel distant from u.. its like i dont know u anymore. u walk past me without sensing my presence and leave without saying goodbye. i feel so awkward talking to u now tat we havent spoken to each other for a few weeks.

2006-08-30T09:09:00.000-07:00

i hate my life. its is a bloody freakin hell screwed-up. when its e holidays i go to work. u know y? i dont have much of a social life. when its e exams i screw up. i dont perform as well although i may have studied bloody well hard fer it. breakin down.. i really dont think life's worth it. can u feel my agony. i have parents. family. but to me they r jus display. if u ask me if i love em.. well i dont really know wad to reply.. i dont even think i wud feel a thing if i see my dad in a coffin rite now.. my mum and sis.. hardly tok to em.. i'm jus a burning inferno inside. waiting to erupt.. wif all my feelings clogged up inside. all the anger and hatred tat i feel for myself. i jus hate me. i hate my reflection. the fat ugly exterior i c on the outside. my bday? wads tat.. its jus another unfortunate day in which i was received into the earth.. a day which marks the start of future miseries.. negative conditionings.. i m nutured to be pessimistic. tats me. i walk a lonely life. a feel sorrow, anger, frustration.. its slowly erupting.. the emotions overwhelming me.. i'm so awfully jealous.. jealous at people.. who owe their achievements to their family..parents.. i wish i have a better family.. i know others r worse off than me.. but i'm jus weak inside. i laff to put on a bold happy front.. inside i m really crippling.. i dont live life. i live because i haf to.. jus some aimless soul.. each day i wake up to another dreadful day.. with nothing to look forward to. pls tranquilize me.. S.O.S..

2006-08-11T21:31:00.000-07:00

its very difficult to reject these pri sch kids.. tiffany, musfirah, aliah, cassandra, atika.. they kip bugging me to come every saturday to teach em.. when online they wud jus constantly pester me to continue teaching em.. but its a different thing when i actually go down n teach em.. its like they have really short attention spans n its really difficult to teach 5 or 6 ppl at the same time when they dont bother to focus and listen to u. they'll give excuses like 'help me do la cher.. my hand pain' or ' i'm lazy la.. dont feel like doing'.. i have to be stern n yet i have to be nice to em.. n yet my studies r like a mess already.. once e willpower and determination to do well is gone its actually very difficult to continue striving hard.. geez. tml going to esplanade wif yongan. gonna relive e panorama days.. but at e same time, at the back of my mind i know it would be time wasted.. sick!

2006-07-12T02:02:00.000-07:00

heard tat prelims is on sept 11. cries! which means exactly 2 months. like 60 days. omg. scary!!!
kays. i shud plan now.. but seriously my momentum in maths is whoosh! -gone- n fer bio fer these 2 yrs i havent exactly studied. i mean hard core. chem is currently my fav. =D n talk abt GP i wanna faint. F9. i mean it speaks totally abt my performance. my maturity level + knowledge abt e world like NIL. mayb a little but far too insufficient. trying to read e papers daily but nah.. i fail to do so. worse still i dont really fancy my gp tutor-ms joy. i'm like gonna start revisng.. NOW! at least 4 topics fer chem, math n bio respectively fer this week.. n fer gp jus read e papers daily n prob do some research. yeps tats my plan fer e week. STUDY HARD SHERLYN! u can do it! really hoping fer these grades in prelim: chem-A, bio-C/B, math-A, GP-C5/B4. nothing is impossible. off to create miracles now! shall update soon =D

2006-06-27T09:46:00.000-07:00

ok its like nearly one am on a tuesday- e day after bio exams. not sleeping cos i'm like waiting fer my wet hair to dry after a bath-after-exercising-in-the-nite session (inspired by e Oprah Winfrey show!!) bio was damn sucky! pukes. literally i nearly puked during e paper. wanted to go to e toilet after all e nausea i experienced during tat fateful paper tat gt my back n head aching but i decided against it since i didn't have much time left anyways. started with section A n e already e 1st qns i got stuck n it certainly caught me off guard n panicking. so i guess my mood jus went dipping after tat. section c lifted my spirits up a little.. section b was quite horrigible. hais. chem was much beta lahs. although i cud certainly have done beta if i did nt confuse myself fer like 20 mins fer tat hideous periodic table melting point trend n left out tat 4 marks organic qns which i left out! =( i wish i wish.. i can get a B or A.. cos i worked really hard fer it this time besides maths. i've like gotten straight Cs fer chem since J1. its time fer a change. i'm damn worried fer GP n bio cos i dont know how to do well fer it.. bio's e worst! there's hardly any assignments other then e 10 yr-series to practise wif. tat explains me getting shocked fer practically every bio qns i see today. * shud i get last min tuition? but its a bit too late rite..*
panorama rehearsal tml frm 10-9+ in e esplanade. sighs. gonna b so tired. but gonna bring some stuff there to study. *yawns

2006-06-16T23:32:00.000-07:00

'life is made up of meetings and partings. People come into your life everyday, you say morning, you say good evening, some stay for a few minutes, some stay for a few months, some a year, others a whole lifetime. No matter who it is, you meet and then you part. i'm glad i met you;i'll thank my lucky stars for that. i think i wished for you all of my life...with every cloud there's a silver lining, as every day went by and i thought about her every second i smiled, i knew that meeting her, knowing her and above all loving her, was the biggest silver lining of all.'
-cecelia ahern If You Could See Me Now

2006-06-11T09:52:00.000-07:00

workin workin workin... tats how to describe my current 'holiday' life to u. next week's gonna be at budget all e way
mon-12-10pm work
tues-nil
wed-12-10pm work
thrus- 7.30-9.30pm math tut
fri- 12-10pm work
sat- 5.30-7.30pm chem tut
sun -12-10pm work.
nice rite? but seriously i'd rather be working my butt off than laze arnd at home.. come to think of it i shudn't haf told ms chua i prefer budget.. i miss T1 now.. =(

2006-06-10T12:23:00.000-07:00

heard frm michelle tat u still sm*ke.. quite saddened+surprised by tat fact.. u told me u had quitted cos ur bf didn't like u to do it. i think its cos of stress n u desperately finding a job to support ur family n peer pressure tat caused u to pick up e same habit after such a long hiatus of not doing it. u told me u had pi*es again... i'm worried for u. as a fren i wouldn't wanna c u this way.. i suspected sumthing when u lost so much weight.. but wad michelle said, u going fer break to sm*ke jus tat day confirmed my suspicions.. u specially came to budget after ur work to visit me tat day n bought me a snack.. we talked like there's no end fer 2 hrs.. i m truly grateful to u.. u were sick today.. i helped u cover.. we both like e song 'unfaithful' by rihanna. u even made it ur ringtone.. mayb its jus me taking a minor thing too seriously.. but i hope u'll quit it though it hard to.. i wanna help but i dont know where to start.. is there a nid to help anyway?..

2006-06-08T20:36:00.000-07:00

the reason why academy award winning dramas deserve the credit:
1) they are usually long (131mins) and bore the hell outta u
2) jus when u decide to stop watching (after 1hr passed), u suddenly find some sense in all tat u have been watching
3) they are very different from the usual comedies or i-love-u-and-u-love-me-a disaster-suddenly-happens romance movies.
4) very long duration time- normally shows u e entire life of e character not e normal zoom in on one particular phase of life thingy that we normally see
5) they make us awefully inspired and hooked on it

kays.. going to budget in like 2hrs time.. excited? yes. worried? yes. gotta manage a totally new system on my own.. how not to?

2006-06-07T23:24:00.000-07:00

some people just have everything going on fer em... well i dont..

2006-06-07T10:21:00.000-07:00

as usual i woke up at 8+am today. jus in time to go fer my cip wif e pri sch kids. Tiffany asked me fer my hp no n another kid wanted my email add which i'd promise to gif her tml morn. tml's like e end of e days teaching em. n e teacher asked e bunch of tutors whether we'd like to continue. i dun mind since my house is jus like oppo e sch. saw my pri sch teacher. hmmm.. i used to go gaga over him.. but looking at him now... its not worth going gaga over fer.. mdm maznah invited e kids over to her place fer like this mini celebration fer em attending all her 9days of lessons consistently n she invited e tutors over too.. Tiffany was like acting grown-up. she knew i had to work so she asked me if i had to work tml. when i told her i didn't she was practically arranging fer me to meet her n e 'rest of e gang' at simei mrt. hmm.. so much fer being a pri-sch-kid-acting-a-grown-up.
yest i worked. n at 11+pm i went out to meet jess n e choir peeps. went to pass sherlyn chua e chocs i brought frm 'the cocoa tree' to e altos. wishing em e best of luck. i think now they mus b at e other end of e world either preparing fer e competition or r probably in or over n done wif it.
fri's gonna b officially 'budget'day. i have yet to learn uploading but Raz promised to settle tat wif me over e phone tat day.
watched million dollar baby. its so inspiring its got my tears welling up in my eyes most of e time.
i'm getting so tired n lazy + dreadfully moody.. i feel so sorry fer skippin e flag day thingy today. =( i'm very tired.. VERY...

2006-06-04T20:39:00.000-07:00

i jus concluded a few minutes ago tat without chicken in my life i m moody
i love eating chicken. not eating chicken fer this past few days jus made me super moody n pissed.. chicken-i m officially addicted to u.
schedule fer e week:
mon- chem tut (i jus went fer it)
tues- 9-12cip 4-12work + sending off e choir peeps
wed- 9-12cip 1-5cip
thrus- 9-12cip 7.30-9.30math tut
fri- 2-10 at budget terminal!my 1st time working there. whee! dear ABBAS has decided to come visit n kip me company! simply love her =D
sat-nil
sun-3-12 work
so i guess my week's still gonna b rather busy. fri-i get to tend to e whole shop ALL BY MYSELF. independence, i jus cant wait!

2006-06-03T21:16:00.000-07:00

a note to myself:
sherlyn u must stop daydreaming
start revising.
dont let history repeat itself again. u can do it!
dont be so pessi..
when u fall pick urself up n work harder
set a goal and work towards it. like wad ur brilliant SL said
haf hope.
dun compare urself to others cos tat'll make u even more inferior.
dun think abt not going to czech cos reality will not make a sudden twist
believe tat u can do it cos u can!
do not procrastinate.
believe in HIM cos only he can make miracles happen.

2006-06-03T09:28:00.000-07:00

my new blog!
this is my 3rd blog n i hope nv to ignore it again.
the choir concert is over fer a few days already but still i m feeling a bit choir-sick
it kills not to go fer czech when u put in so much effort into singing + u know how much fun it cud be.. oh wells.. maths results didn't turn out well either.. after SO MUCH practising.. ended up wif a B.. damn.. sometimes it hurts so much to put in so much effort and realise tat all this labour is not at all 'fruitful'.. life is bizarre sometimes..
e 1st week of holz are like ending.. n yet i feel lost.. i have to go to work.. lotsa cip stuff..cope wif studies and when e czech trip is over n done wif there's gonna be choir prac again.. its like super tiring esp when u know ur schedule is so tight n sometimes its like getting so involved u get stifled and choked. choked by life's demands... or perhaps my expectations of my own performance. each time i work harder e harder i fall.. cos tat's how it goes. ur confidence level jus builds up till a point when u dont achieve u fall like hell into a bottomless pit.. its like a vicious cycle repeating itself over again. its not good to be complacent but at times when jealousy comes around its jus beta to be satisfied with wad u haf.
if only wishes come true..